Not Sorry

I'm not sorry I'm going away honey.

I've promised to call you soon.

I've spoken about how much I'm going to miss you.

Though it's all a farce,

Never mind, if it comforts you.

You talk of how our love will survive the miles.

Our love was dead long ago baby.

We were just feeding on the ashes.

I'm no longer who I was ten years ago.

And you're still you. So that makes us strangers.

Can't help it if it hurts you,

But I'm going away honey.

Voices In My Head

There are voices in my head.

There are uninvited guests in my mind.

There are strangers in my attic.

There are intruders in my thoughts.

There's Fear the Ghost,

Haunting away my sleep at night.

There's Hope and Despair, the inseparable twins,

Bouncing up and down on the see-saw of my life.

(unaware of the havoc they wreak!)

There's Love, the biggest idiot of the lot,

Blissfully unaware of the extent of its stupidity.

And then there's Joy, the new-born,

Beautiful and fragile.

There are uninvited guests in my mind.

How I wish i could throw them out!

There are voices in my head.

How I wish I could shut them up!

Indifference

I go to extraordinary lengths

to act like I don't care

because I care so much.

I pretend not to notice you

so you don't notice

how my heart skips a beat

when I see you.